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The Forbidden Letters - Part 2

Here is some extra information on The Forbidden Letters  taken from emails sent to Philip Gardiner
by the Paris 4 between November 10, 2005 and January 29, 2006.

The Paris 4.


In letter number two we wrote 'this fire will, after it is tuned down, produce in many years the Kingdom within. It grows like a plant...' etc.

We were summarizing there a little bit to boldly. For, it is not the fire which does that. The fire lasts for about 20 minutes and then stops. Our gay man tells us that after that fire about 36 hours later the top chakra opens.

India says this is the last chakra to open, but it's just the other way around. The top chakra is an 'airy' chakra, not a bodily chakra, like the other ones, who are to open after the Night of the Soul. This top chakra has two exits. On top of the skull, and on the forehead, but not between the eyebrows, the famous third eye chakra, or Ajna-chakra.

The front-exit of the top-chakra is about 4 centimeters above the eyebrows. The ajna-chakra (between the eyebrows), is, again, not to be opened till after the Night of the Soul, like all other bodily (non 'airy') chakra's too.

We don't know why there is a period of 14 (!) years between the Kundalini and the Night of the Soul. Perhaps the top chakra is in a way preparing the body/soul for the Night of the Soul.

There is no Kundalini involved in the Night of the Soul.


A correction on Letter number five. It is not Parzival, but Gawan who has to fight the lion. This makes no difference alchemically. Because Parzival, Gawan, Anfortas, Feirefiz, plus the beheaded man (Sigunes?) are all one and the same person. They all represent different stages in the Work of the Sun. One is guarding the Stone, another one figthing the lion (Night of the Soul), and yet another one is beheaded.


On your question, mister Gardiner: (on being gay) is that the one sided male, or rather 'the place between'?

Our gay man is, as we wrote earlier, Anfortas too. Meaning that he has that mysterious pain in his left testicle. That pain started a few months before his Kundalini. It is described by von Eschenbach in his Parzival. Especcialy the part about the wound getting cold as ice is correct (there is no visible wound on our gay man though).

During the months that lead up to the resurrection the pain gets worse and worse. In the end he had difficulties of walking even. This pain made it impossible for our man to have sex. And there we have the famous sperm-saving-theory from Tantra.

Now, we don't think you can simply raise the Kundalini-snake by not having sex for a few months. The gate to Paradise would be very public indeed then. But it is somehow needed too, that 'not wasting sperm'.

Our theory: the stone is either also composed of libido (pychic energy) saved in those months, or the saved libido is the 'fuel' to the Kundalini (not only needing that/ see our remark about the Gate to Paradise). We don't know. The odd thing though is that after the resurrection the pain is lowered, but it stays there (even till today).

This might mean the following thing: we once heard that in a physical hermaphrodite (and our man is not a physical hermaphrodite, he's built normally/ we think the original mythical hermaphrodite is describing microcosmic balance of the male and female and that this term is later used by doctors of medicine to name a physically mixed up human being), that in a physical hermaphrodite the left testicle is often missing, but the left ovarium is there (in the body ofcourse). So, the left testicle in our gay man is perhaps the microcosmic left ovarium. And shakti (Kundalini) is said to be female. Perhaps the microcosmic female ovarium in our gay man doesn't tolerate the female shakti (++ gives repulsion + - attraction).

Although, that doesn't explain why the pain started months before Kundalini. Perhaps the shakti was growing because he was not getting orgasms anymore. And in him that (the increase of shakti/the female force) would result in the famous testicle-pain, because he possesses that famous balance in male/female forces. Just sharing this with you. We don't understand this either,
what is causing what?

But what about The Gospel of Thomas, 114? Simon Peter said to them, "Make Mary leave us, for females don't deserve life." Jesus said, "Look, I will guide her to make her male, so that she too may become a living spirit resembling you males. For every female who makes herself male will enter the kingdom of Heaven."

In other words: can't females be resurrected because the microcosmic female (Kundalini) wouldn't be tolerated in the macrocosmic female?

People are very uneasy with this logon. We understand. So are we. That uneasy even, that some say 'this logon is added to the Gospel' without giving evidence to that adding. We feel that we had to discuss the logon within the stuff on the resurrection nevertheless.


Then, you asked us whether 'we would recommend the use of drugs as part of the process'
(of resurrection).

Philip, the grail is not on drugs.


A little metallic like wheel (like in a clock) starts to spin in the decapitated head, either on the left side, or the right side (our gay man doesn't remember), near the ear and then, spinning fast, makes a 90 degree move to the forehead. (We can't help thinking about Revelation/ the sign on the foreheads.)


One is on the floor during resurrection and if one wakes up the next morning one discovers that one is firmly attached to the floor at two points: the coccyx and the back of the head. (So the spine is 'straight' and the snake can escape through a 'straight' spine?) It took our gay man 30 minutes to free himself. The coccyx was very painfull for days.


The answer to the question: which God was conceived through homosexual union: Thot, the later Hermes. Father of Alchemy.

Pellerano has that story on dragonkeypress:

"Sexual Magick cites another incident in Egyptian Myth where Seth lusts after his brother Horus and seduces him. Horus stealthily applies the sperm of Seth onto a lettuce, the preferred food of Seth. Seth eats the lettuce, is impregnated thereby and gives birth to Thoth."

"Thoth, conceived through homosexual union, dually represents the creative act that is both divine and artistic, especially in relation to literature. Thoth is traditionally the god of wisdom, scribes, and the occult arts; he is also associated with “the Word.” The concept of “the Word” is of supreme importance in the creation myths embraced by esoteric schools of Judeo-Christianity. God is said to have uttered the words that emanated forth the spheres of creation. Language and godly powers are closely related in mysticism. This concept is resonant in the sacred or generative powers attributed to alphabets such as Hebrew and Sanskrit."

"Since alchemy is generally suspected to have originated in Egypt, Egyptian mythology is particularly pertinent to alchemical lore. The Greek personification of Thoth, who features highly in the art of alchemy, elucidates the connection even further. For the alchemist, Thoth is the equivalent of the all-encompassing genius, Hermes Trismegistus. Trismegistus was said to be the greatest of all kings, priests, and philosophers; and was, if viewed vis-à-vis the Egyptian myth, the product of homosexual love."


We (and that includes our gay man) in Letter number four said that we never saw the source manuscripts of the New Testament. So how can our gay man ensure us (because that's what we write too) that 'most of the manuscripts is found back in the parabels of 'Jesus' about the Kingdom of God'?

Our gay man was informed about the manuscripts in emails in 2000, just before his night of the soul. By a mailer on an alchemy-website. This man informed him that the manuscripts were packed with alchemy in farmer-allegory (like in the Gospel). But how, you will ask, did our gay man know so sure that his informant was speaking the truth? He didn't. But he decided to trust him because of a very odd incident. A very odd incident indeed.

For that anonymous mailer could tell our gay man about his sexual fetish. A thing our gay man had only shared with a few lovers. And it was our gay man who contacted the mailer, not the other way around. Because if it would have been the other way around, it could simply have been an ex-boy-friend having a pratical joke ofcourse.

Our gay man admits that he is, therefor, not absolutely sure about the theory on the manuscripts from 120 BCE, but that he trusted the man's statement, because he could tell precisely about his (our gay man's) deepest sexual feelings. The header of the email in which the informer told our gay man about his feelings was 'Adam Kadmon will give you a foot, instead of a hand.'


(taken from a Forum)

"Researchers found that the shape of the human skull has changed significantly over the past 650 years. Modern people possess less prominent features, but higher foreheads than our medieval ancestors. Writing in the Britsh Dental Journal, the team took careful measurements of groups of skulls spanning across 30 generations. The scientists said the differences between past and present skull shapes were "striking"."

In the Forbidden Letters it is said that he 'who overcomes' the aggression impulses of the Night of the Soul will successfully produce the lightbody. You need higher brain function (neo cortex) to ride that bull of aggression impulses, and it is said in The Letters that Alchemy is the "end goal"of evolution too.


One of us has read in literature about 15 years ago that 'Melchisedek opened the earth for Christ' (it's a detail on Melchisedek not given in the Bible). Christ has descended too in the earth, only here, Christianity says, to 'free souls'. This is, in our view, pollution of the Gospel. Orthodoxy that couldn't 'fill in' the-descending-into-the-earth-theme' (alchemy) and came up with the soul-theory.

Now, it is said of Melchisedek that Christ 'is priest after the rule of Melchisedek'. What is meant here? We brainstormed. That Melchisedek is in our view the 'microcosmic, alchemical law', after which the great work has to be performed. He's made into a person in myth. So Melchisedek the alchemical structure in the body, the law, if you want. The Phoenix is the human body in the first phase of alchemy (resurrection), and the christ the completed, deified body after the second phase (night of the soul).


Let's have a closer look at the foot washing. And why? We are to reveal some more of the sexual preference of our gay man. And you'll be astonished, as we were once too.

Remember what we said about 'Adam Kadmon will give you a foot, instead of a hand.'

There is a very odd story in history. It is supposed to have originated in the first century. We were never able to trace the story in literature. And that's a weak point. But we are begging for your attention nevertheless.

How do we know about that odd story? Our secretary (the one who gives our English a last boost and sends the emails to you from public computers) had coffee at the end of the eighties with the parents of a friend of his. They were shocked because of an incident that happened on television the other night. They told that (on a evangelical) talk-show somebody told a very strange little story. It went like this: The Son of God descended from heaven, saw Adam, loved Adam, kneeled down, kissed his feet and tickled (!) his feet. End of story.

Our friend wondered how this 'gay' story could have been broadcasted by Christians, and found out that it was a live program. It couldn't be cut. We, unfortunately, are not allowed to name the country and the program, we don't want give away the home country of our secretary. You understand.

Now, keep all this in mind and let's look at the foot washing. It's only brought by 'John', who's the only one who has 'the beloved disciple'. Why did Jesus wash feet? Not for reasons of hygiene. Because the meal was over already when he started to wash the feet. And this is very important: nowhere it is told why the disciples should was feet at all. They are told to wash because Jesus is Lord, and they were servant. But why they should was in the first place, it is not explained. And John knows that too. The 'but thou shalt know hereafter' in our opinion is 2000 years later.

Here we go:

The Gospel According to Saint John

John 13: Chapter 13

13:1 Now before the feast of the passover, when Jesus knew that his hour was come that he should depart out of this world unto the Father, having loved his own which were in the world, he loved them unto the end.

13:2 And supper being ended (ended !), the devil having now put into the heart of Judas Iscariot, Simon's son, to betray him;

13:3 Jesus knowing that the Father had given all things into his hands, and that he was come from God, and went to God;

13:4 He riseth from supper, and laid aside his garments; and took a towel, and girded himself.

13:5 After that he poureth water into a bason, and began to wash the disciples' feet, and to wipe them with the towel wherewith he was girded.

13:6 Then cometh he to Simon Peter: and Peter saith unto him, Lord, dost thou wash my feet?

13:7 Jesus answered and said unto him, What I do thou knowest not now; but thou shalt know hereafter.

13:8 Peter saith unto him, Thou shalt never wash my feet. Jesus answered him, If I wash thee not, thou hast no part with me.  [What is 'Jesus' saying here?]

13:9 Simon Peter saith unto him, Lord, not my feet only, but also my hands and my head.

13:10 Jesus saith to him, He that is washed needeth not save to wash his feet, but is clean every whit: and ye are clean, but not all.

13:11 For he knew who should betray him; therefore said he, Ye are not all clean.

13:12 So after he had washed their feet, and had taken his garments, and was set down again, he said unto them, Know ye what I have done to you?

13:13 Ye call me Master and Lord: and ye say well; for so I am.

13:14 If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; ye also ought to wash one another's feet.

13:15 For I have given you an example, that ye should do as I have done to you.

13:16 Verily, verily, I say unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord; neither he that is sent greater than he that sent him.

13:17 If ye know these things, happy are ye if ye do them.


Summarizing the resurrection.

1978 : Pope John Paul (de labore solis = of the work of the sun) comes to power. During his reign 90% of the work of the sun in our gay man is taking place.

March 1986 : testicle-pain starts (the work of the sun starts)

July 1986 : testicle-pain is at his height and stays at his height till a about a week after the resurrection (September 4 1986)

End of august till September 4 1986 : our gay man becomes a child. That is, psychologically during certain minutes. During those minutes, and to his own surprise, he even produces a child's voice. (pupulus nudus means the naked young boy and this reminds us of the words of Jesus too: you must become like a little child again if you want to enter the Kingdom of God.)

September 4 1986 (little after midnight 'silentio noctis' ( in the silence of the night): resurrection.

a) Our man is on the floor on his back. He had his eyes closed during the whole resurrection. A 'thread' (very thin) is closing around his neck. The head is decapitated by that 'thread'.

b) The stone is produced about where the liver is. The stone ignites the Kundalini fire (the fire can actually be heard) and starts to move about, increasingly violently. Fire getting stronger. Arms and legs break into pieces.

c) The snake is driven out. Our friend doesn't know where it went. Up the spine, but after that: no clue. (Into the earth?)

d) The wheel starts to spin and is raised to the forehead.

e) One starts to descend into the earth. After 2 minutes our man 'fell asleep' or passed out in another hypnagogic way. Hypnagogic, because he couldn't remember that moment the morning after. If you lose consciousness you remember. So he 'fell asleep'.

f) 10.30 in the morning. He woke up. Coccyx and back of the head firmly attached to the floor. As said before, it took him about 30 minutes to free himself.

g) September 5 1986 : the top-chakra opens.


October 2000 : the night of the Soul starts.

November 2001 : the lightbody starts to grow.

Springs 2005 : The lightbody is already very strong. Pope John Paul dies. The bulk of the Work of the Sun is performed during his reign 'of the work of the sun'/ 'de labore solis'.

Ratzinger then becomes Pope. The last pope, and he has the slogan: gloria olivae (the glory of the olive tree: the Tree of Life (spine and brain)). So gloria olivae: the sons of God revealed with the becoming visible of the lightbody. The harvest ("if everything is strong enough, you will have your harvest").

There is an extra Pope, Petrus Romanus, in the list of Maleachi, but he is not clearly identified as a pope. We don't know how to solve this Petrus Romanus problem. Because surely, history as we know it (and that includes churchianity without a doubt) shall stop after the revelation of the sons of God. Not?

The Paris 4

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